10.02.2005 |  Metamorphosis

posted by Jon
22:01 | SAY SOMETHING |



Life won't slow down. It seems like I hardly have time to stop and think things through. I missed church today because I couldn't sleep last night and my body is so sore from the sunburns I accumulated from the canoe trip yesterday. I spent the day going through my stuff, packing the things I can't live without, and throwing away everything else. Came across some pictures from the past... some friends have sent me in the mail, some I took while at college, some from CWSC, some from other times in the past. I had some time today, finally, to myself - to re-evaluate my priorities and to actually think about where my life is headed.

This move home won't be permanent. It probably won't even last very long. But I'm hoping it will provide me with an opportunity to change certain things about my life. I know I won't have the convenience of being close to my friends, but I'll be closer to my family, and that can't be bad. I hope I will read my Bible more, and evaluate my relationship with Christ more. I hope this will provide me with the discipline and motivation I need. Friends are vital, but family is more so. This could be the turning point in a lot of ways.

I had a conversation with John this evening, and we are both so far behind in our walks than we should be. The pictures I have from my time in Pensacola say a ton about where we were at that point in our lives, and make it painfully clear that while we've learned a lot since then, our actions haven't progressed all that much. As members of Trinity, and as Southerners brought up in Christian households, we really have no excuse for our actions, and God will hold us accountable. Knowing all the right words is important, but acting on them is where I need work. Pray that this move to my parents' will be the beginning of a new revitalized life for me, and that my decisions from now on out will lead me on a path that will bring me closer to Him. I need help.